Progress

Pegi and I keep in touch every few weeks. I am happy to report that I continue to make progress. I've done some backsliding, but now that my awareness has been raised, I don't want to ever allow those old feelings to control my life again. I visited extended family – Lady La – a few weeks ago. I really felt free to disclose, rather than hide my feelings.

While I was away from home for 6 days, Quinn called me several times to complain about things that I neither had control over or couldn't 'fix' while I was 2500 miles away! In the past, I would have hidden my feelings from La. Although I was out of everyone's earshot when I spoke to Quinn, I talked about it to the 3 women that were in the house after I hung up. Their advice made sense to me and I plan to implement their suggestions.

What changed for me is that I didn't feel like I was a failure when I was confiding in my friends. They could 100% relate to what I was going through. I felt stronger, rather than weaker. This is so huge for me because I have felt so alone in my feelings. Suddenly, I feel free to not be so perfect!